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One Freaky Friday

I woke up at 7:00AM this morning when I have to leave the house at 7:30AM. Have no choice but to just drink up coffee and take a quick bath. No decent breakfast whatsoever.

Got to the FX station at 7:45AM. The line was unbelievably long. There was no FX to be seen at that. I was able to get my ride at 8:15AM.

And to think that I have to be at the office by 8:30AM since I have a meeting by 10AM in Sta. Rosa, Laguna.

I was praying so hard that it was not traffic along Quirino Ave. and Osmena Hi-way so I'll be at the office in 20mins. But...

Alas!

I got to the office by 8:45AM. I thought my transport service left me. Turned out, my driver woke up late also and was on his way only  then.

I thought I was about to die.

I called up my client in Laguna and told them I would be late because my driver was late.

My transport service got to the office by 10AM. I hurriedly stepped in and told him to just take the Skyway. It'll be faster that way.

I thought so...

From Sucat to Alabang, we got stuck again in traffic. Lord, why?

I got to my client 11:45AM. Thank God they weren't really mad. And the meeting went smoothly. So to speak. Meeting ended at 1PM.

It was a fast meeting. Thank You, Lord.

Called up my driver, he was nowhere in sight. Turned out, he went for lunch himself thinking that my meeting would last very long when I knowingly told him that I would only be gone for just an hour.

Wow.

I don't know what to say.

He was able to pick me up at 1:30PM.

Imagine not having a decent breakfast and having to take your lunch by 2PM. I was totally famished and had to tell my driver to stop by Chowking at Caltex because I can't wait already for Makati.

After lunch, I thought everything will be alright.

Of course not.

It was super traffic again and I had to travel for almost 2 and a half hours until I get to Makati.

I got to Makati at almost 5PM.

And now, I'm still stuck in the office because I have several paperworks that I have to finish by today if I don't want to come to the office tomorrow.

It's 7:30PM.

Lord, God. Why me?

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So...

What am I?

What am I supposed to be?

Why can't I decipher who am I?

Why is it that I feel that nothing is going on with my life that should be worth being proud of?

What do I like to achieve?

Why is it that those that I want achieved doesn't happen?

Am I a failure?

Can I never get up and do the things I've been meaning to do?

What do I want?

What do I want to do in life?

What am I?

Lord, God...

I need You.

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Enlightenment

Yesterday, the first Sunday of 2005 - was the first Sunday in my entire life wherein I felt really enlightened for the whole day.

Of course, I went to church. Half-heartedly at first though, since I had to wake up at 7:00AM and have to do the usual routine in the morning when all I really wanted to do at that time was to go under the covers and drift faraway to dreamland. [run-on sentence. forgive me. ]

So came 9:00AM, off to Sunday School. I was actually late. Came in around 9:30AM. Wasn't able to listen much since I have to leave at 9:45AM for our choir warm-up.

Then came 10:00AM. Morning Service started. "WELCOME 2005" was the title of our Pastor's preaching. One thing I learned here, as we welcome 2005, we should still remember 2004 and make it a guide to what we are to do for 2005. I remembered the tsunami incident that hit a part of Asia during the latter part of the year. I remembered how many people died. How many of those people actually know Jesus? How many of those souls are lost? Where are they now? Heaven? Or hell?

Our Pastor's burden, became my burden. I need to "Go." Not necessarily to go to other countries but in my own way - to "go" and reach out to lost souls out there. I could start with friends and relatives. I could become a living example of what it is to be like with Christ in me. That could be a good way to start. And who knows what can happen next.

Then came 3:00PM. Time for our SAYA [Youth Group]. The games were fun. The bonding time and sharing time was fun, too. It was nice to know other people. But it was the preaching that struck me again. "Where was I?" was the topic. We discussed the beatitudes in Matthew 5: 1 - 10. And it left me thinking, "Where was I in the year 2004?" What have I been doing? Have I been a good Christian? Have I grown spiritually? What are my successes? My failures? Have I learned from them?

The message left me reflecting on my life during the year 2004. And I realized one thing - I haven't fully trusted God during the year 2004. I relied on my own strength not trusting God to do what He can for me. I've wounded my Saviour.

I vowed to do things differently this year. And by God's grace, I can.

5:00PM came for the evening service. Our candlelight service. Every 1st Sunday of the year, we do this to reflect on our past life during the past year and to look forward to the year 2005 by offering our service and commitment to God.

During this time, my callous and hard heart was totally broken. I realized that I haven't been right with God for so long. And I have to get right back on track, otherwise - I'll always be side-tracked and my life will not be as fulfilling as God wanted it to be. I committed my life to Him again. And this time, I'd like to do it for real and not just through lip-service. Through God's grace - again, I can.

Whew.

So much for one day. But enlightening, nonetheless.

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GREETINGS!

Happy New Year All!!

Hoping you guys had a fun-filled year 2004 and are looking forward to a brand new 2005.

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