LOST in SPACE

my place. my life. don't interfere.

 

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said, written, taken, ranted by: wuthie at 12:20 | link | comments |
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Let's just say that for the past week, I've been losing my mind. And I can't seem to grab hold of it or to have control over it.

I've been on an emotional roller coaster and I don't know whether to barf or keep my mouth shut or scream and go crazy. Come to think of it, I'm already crazy.

I just realized lately that I don't seem to know what I want to do. I don't have a focus in life. What do I want? What should I do? It's like, when something comes my way, I grab and just grab until such time that I see that my hands are so full already but I can't let go of the things I'm holding because they might break. And surprise! Surprise! All the blame goes to me.

I kept on telling myself that I don't want to be a jack-of-all-trades and that I should have a focus. But now, what the hell?! What do I want?! Dagnabbit.

My dad asked me this morning if I'm ok with my current work and all the other things I've been doing, and I tell him, yeah - I'm fine. Of course, I can't tell him that, "No, dad. I'm not fine. I'm so drained. I want to scream!" lest I want to be kicked into the next century.

Like I told my best friend and boyfriend, I can't afford to rest. People expect much from me. And when I fail, well - people would probably laugh at me or scorn me or something. I don't know. Is that what I'm afraid of? That's why I keep on doing all these things that I'm not really happy doing already? I'm such a loser. Come to think of it, I think I've already failed them with this. They just don't realize it yet.

Damn. What am I saying? I'm rambling. I need to shut up. I've said too much.

said, written, taken, ranted by: wuthie at 10:35 | link | comments |
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YEYEYE!!!

I'm writing - er - typing this entry of mine here at Starbucks, Taft [while waiting for my brother to finish his watching of a school play at St. Scholastica's] via my laptop via Wi-Fi. Hehe. Juvenile, I know. But - I don't care what you guys think. I'm feeling ecstatic because it's my first time to browse through Wi-Fi. Mwehehehehe! I'm such a loser now, am I? Because I'm only enjoying this Wi-Fi thingy now when it's out in the market for ages. BUT I STILL DON'T FREAKING CARE!!!  Because I'm enjoying it. Harhar!

I thank you.

Bow.

said, written, taken, ranted by: wuthie at 16:12 | link | comments (3) |
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I am currently crushing on someone.  Don't get me wrong. I love my boyriend so much but I mean - it's ok to still have a crush, right? I mean, it's only a crush and it's not entirely serious and well - (ok, I'm rambling now. I'll zip it up already.).

So anyway, where was I? Oh yeah, I am recently crushing on someone. Heehee.  He's cute and so adorable. He can make me laugh and go "awwww..." at some of his antics. He can be very naughty too, at times. But when he starts to look at me with his puppy-dog eyes, I just couldn't resist and forgives him easily. He's intelligent too. And funny. He's sweet and that's what made me adore him so much.

Dying to know who he is? Click here to see his picture.

Cute, right?

His name is Calvin Lontoc. And he is 4 years old.

said, written, taken, ranted by: wuthie at 11:45 | link | comments (4) |
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